~*H@PpY BiRtHd@y*~

Friday, 28 January 2005, was my 23rd birthday. Early in the morning, I can't get up to go for the class. So, I skipped the first hour lecture and attended the second hour of lecture. After the lecture, I got a group discussion. After an hour, I had lunch -- Tom Yam Ayam, with my friend at Plaza Siswa. After lunch, we went to B1 for my last lecture of the day.

After the tiring lecture, I went to Creative Look Saloon to get my hair trim. Finally, my messy hair could look better now. After that, I got a nap for 45 minutes.

Around 5pm, I got myself ready for the birthday celebration. I'm a little excited at time. Supposingly, I should be happy and excited for the whole night. A little disappointment happened when me, the birthday girl, need to wait for a friend to get herself ready for about 10 minutes. Even I'm not so happy with it, but I still pretend that I'm okay with it cause I don't want to spoil the atmostphere.

After leaving Bukit Beruang, we were on the way to a studio to get photo of mine. I suspected the studio located at somewhere near Jalan Ong Kim Wee, but we headed to the wrong places which was brought by friend who thought is that place. We went a big round and caught in the traffic jam for 30 minutes. Again, I'm tired with this kind of situation which cause me a little unhappy of it. With anger, I got myself out of the car and thinking to walk to the studio to get photo. But Vince had stopped me from doing so and he volunteer to walk there and take the pictures for me. Then, I went into the car and looked at his action. He walked here and there, asking for the direction and the location of the studio. Finally, he ran towards the shop and got the pictures. Suddenly, there is a feeling of touch grew in my heart. He was being told to drive the wrong way and everything, but he never blame on anyone of us and never complain anything bout it.

After that, we went to our destination -- Coconut House. It located at the row in front of the Jonker Street. So, we parked the car quite far from the shop and walked there. Finally, we reached the shop and we sat at a table for six. Each of us ordered a pasta and a drink and I added two regular pizza with different favour. The foods were quite slow and not really nice. Maybe we don't know how to order. The pizza still okay and the best for that day was the Tomyam flavour pasta and the beef lasagne. The foods are not cheap there and I spent RM100+ which over my budget cause I didn't expected to pay more than RM150. After filling stomach, we walked around the shop and took some photos. I felt like we were quite 'sampat' that time.

After the dinner, we walked to the jonker street where I lost my mood as well. Maybe I'm just too worried to blow the candles after 12am. Well, around 10.30pm, we headed to Secret Recipe at Melaka Raya to eat Cheeze Choc which my friend ordered for me a day earlier. The cake is not bad.

As the night still young, we decided to go to the Pure Bar where the favourite place for MMU students to hang out. Actually, it's my first time to go Pure Bar and the environment inside is just normal. Maybe I had been expecting too much. We ordered 2 buckets and I drank 3-4 bottles of Calrsberg which enough to make me 70% drunk.

Erm.. Actually, the most happy moment was that I received sms from my old friends who I never expect them to wish me. I'm really so touch by them that they still remember my birthday. I really miss them a lot..

Every year, every special occasion, I just got only one wish. Almost four years I had made the same wishes but it never come true. Anyway, thanks for everyone who wishes me. :)


~Back from left: Punitha, Chao Jie and Win Nee~
~Front from left: Vince, me and Zhong Hui~


~Still the same people but at another corner~


~We @ Secret Recipe~


~Me with stupid pose~


~Presents from firends~


~Gift from my lovely roomate and her bf~


~Gift from my lovely housemates~

~*My Courage*~

Yesterday was the last day for TRINiTE 2005 Roadshow. I took up my courage to participate in the event. The roadshow took me 4 hours to done my make-up, hair perming and phtograph.

Here is the picture which taken by my friend after the roadshow.

~*Japanese Culture Nite*~

This is the first time I attended Japanese Culture Nite. Actually, I got the ticket for free from my boss who is not free on that night. Humph.. I got the free ticket also is a problem cause I don't have friend to go with. But at last, I went for it.

When I reach Main Hall, MMU around 7.30pm, I saw people standing outside like waiting to go in. I was thinking,"Huh! Got ticket also need to queue?" I dislike to queue, so I went to the ATM of BCB to check my account. Then, I went back to the Main Hall and the people there was lesser. I took some pictures and went in.

Once I entered inside the Main Hall, the usherer took my ticket and tear off the top part for lucky draw. Then the other usherers gave me a Teruterubozu, a booklet of the event and a drink taste green tea. After that, I directed myself for a nice seat which I could take pictures and watch the performance without blockage.

After the arrival of VIP, the directors of the event and the president of JLS gave their speech. Then, the event follow by the opening ceremony which there was a student holding a Samurai and gave it to the VIP to put it in front of the stage. After that, the performances were started by a Japanese traditional dance, follow by a Japanese drum performance, and some other Japanese dance. There are also local performances which were Para Para Paradise, musical performance and modern dances.

Around 10.45pm, the event was ended and I left the Main Hall and went home.

My review for this event is, the Japanese performances was great and good. Even though, I'm still not satisfied with this event because it does not fit with its title - Japanese Culture Nite. The dances performed by the local students were hot and modern and they are not fit into the title. I not sure about what other people expect from this event, but I'm sure this event disspointed me. I was expecting to see the performance with Japanese umbrella, hand fan and dress in Kimono.

~The Japanese Culture Nite Ticket~


~The Lobby of Main Hall, MMU (The guy thought I took his picture, but in fact, I just want to take the scenary. He spoiled my view!!)~


~The Entrance~


~The Stage~


~The MC (Got another 2 that I didn't took their photo)~


~The Opening Ceremony~


~The First Japanese Traditional Dance~


~The Drum Performance~


~Japanese Dance~


~Musical Instrument Performance by MMU student (First Love and Eyes On Me)~


~Little Japanese girl in Kimono~


~Another Japanese Dance~


~Para Para Paradise (Too little people dancing, more should be nicer!)~


~The Hair Styling Show by Creative Look Hair Studio & Academy~


~Local Performance - even dress in Kimono but performing modern dance~

~*New Year, New Wish, New ME?*~

I wonder, why am I getting terrible day by day. Even my parents and family didn't give me any pressure, but I do receive from outsiders. I has such a feeling that my classmates view me as an alien. Besides, I also felt that they looking down on me.

I admitted that I'm quite shy in front of people and will be additionally quiet with those I'm not so close with. Refresh back for the past few days I working for airbrush, I knew this girl from Beta Human Resource, but I had no barrier talking to her. Maybe, I'm too pressure being in the class. I felt like I'm being avoided and also being left alone.

Now, I always go class alone, sit alone and talk to myself. Are those normal? Yeah, maybe. It's normal for an extended student who are not so familiar in the class.

I lost my confidence since Beta year. I lost everything include friendship, love and education. I lost my soul as well. Everyday walking around campus, I just like looking for something and thinking something else. Each time my friend saw me also will ask me, "hey, you didn't see me ak?" In fact, I really didn't see her. Even I'm looking at the front, but I don't know where is my sight focus on.

I feel sick, mentally sick. I need a break to go far away from this sophiscated place.