Thursday, May 29, 2008

~*Bossie Talk*~

Today, secretary called me and asked me to see my boss immediately. I was shocked and nervous as I doesn't think my position need to deal with boss.

When I walked to his room, he took out the yellow papers. Then I knew that it is for my assessment. All the while, my assessment was done by the seniors so I didn't expect to be assessed by my boss.

However, my boss didn't give me the hard time but he kept on encourage me and ask me to think positive. Well, to be honest, I felt myself changing. Last time, I used to be upset with my job. I felt dissatisfied and unfair from the firm. Slowly, I developed positive thinking and make a change on myself which make me happier in my job. Also, I getting love to do what I am doing.

Well, those advices from my boss are look forward and do the things that can make a change/influence. He adviced that don't do the things that we can't change it. I felt these words are wise and I will remember it. I think he is a great motivator and leader who sees employees as assets.

The assessment last for 1 hour which I didn't expect it could be this long. Anyway, I had a nice chat with him.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

~*Unhappie*~

I am unhappy because:

  1. I am not doing my best
  2. My performance is not up to expectation
  3. To be filled by you!
Haih~ Just unhappy since this morning.. :(

Monday, May 26, 2008

~*Being Scolded for No Reason*~

Today, I received a call from a recruitement company.

This recruitement company was earlier the one who found a job as internal auditor for me. Though the company offer a good pay but I rejected the offer. Then, Mr. H who is in charge on my case did called me after my rejection on the offer. I remembered that I told him I am not looking for a job anymore.

Today, another guy from this same recruitement firm called me up. He is keen in talking and keep on talking and talking. When he asked me a question on which type of company (commercial or audit firm) that I am looking for. I talk him that I am not looking for job already. Then he was like got mad and said that if I not looking for job why do I go for interview and all. He also said that I am wasting their time too.

After I listen all this, he put down the phone. I was like, what is this? I did told them earlier I am not looking for job. Who the hell they are bother to call me up and do all this shit? It sounds like I asking them to find a job for me. I am very angry but I can't do a thing. Argh...

~*The Brain is not Working*~

Lately, there is a lot of things appear in my mind. Though there is certain issues being resolved, but I just can't help to rethink them.


Issue 1:
I had been thinking of resignation for about more than 1 year. I got some good offers and finally I turned down the offers. I knew that I rejected the offer just because I love my job and I love to stay in audit field. But, I just can't help that I love to seek for job and look for better opportunity. I don't know why but I think it's not the time for me to leave my current job.

I just felt that I'm battle-ing with myself. I knew that I got unfair treatment from my current job but I just can't leave my current job not due to the bond or anything. I think most likely I am in the comfort zone and I used to be in the firm for 2 years


Issue 2:
My firm offered me an extension on the contract for ACCA study. I decided to do it on my own and doesn't want to have another contract with the firm. I rejected the offered and I'm pretty sure bout my decision.

But now, I felt that I want to take up the offer.


Issue 3
I decided to choose gold colour for my Myvi. Again.. now I felt that gold colour is not really looking good and I am thinking to change the colour. But I think it is impossible to do so.

Is it so hard for me to make my decision firm? It seems like this is not the first time I am like that, it has been a while. I need advice and I need guidance but there is no where to be found. Though I had spoke to my mom and my brother regarding the job related issues, but I still couldn't make up my mind.


Sometimes I just feel like talking to people about my problem but.. who are the people that willing to listen to me? who are the people that qualify to give me a better solution? who are the people that will always my my site?

~*Mint is BACK!!!*~

I just has the weird feeling that... I want to blog.. So, I'm back..

There is nothing interesting for me to blog about.. So this blog is more like a place for me to rant about everything..