Saturday, July 25, 2009

Blog Again?

It has been some time I did not log in for blogging. I'm thinking to blog again but I prefer abother way of noting down my life in book (diary).

The feeling is complicated as I would like to publish my words in the internet but on the other hand, I got some other idea of writting down them in a book and attach with photo.

I has too many things to think about and to do. I need a change in my life and I just doesn't know when and how to do it. I'm just feeling lost.

There has been time I'm unhappy with myself. No one knew it and no one understand it. I got everything and why am I still unhappy about?

I'm thinking that my current job doesn't fit me. I felt that I just feel ashame of myself that I know nothing bout my job. I know what am I doing but it seems like I don't qualify to be there. All these while, I never have such thought that I'm not qualify to be a senior until I was given a chance to lead a team of people.

Another thing that pressuring me is my love life. Seeing my friends getting married is not a good thing to me. I envy that they are getting marry. I'm in a relationship for two years and I feel that it's time to move on to another stage. But, this is not an issue of myself only, it involve both party. I really don't have a clue bout his marriage intention.

I need to do something to regain my self esteem, but how?