~*不安的夜晚*~

最近，有一种不安的感觉。

自上星期三开始，我觉得很不安心。从来，他不曾那么的温柔说电话。他也不曾那么的关心别人。星期三晚上，他约我吃晚餐。在等待食物的时候，他打了一通电话，相信是他的同事。他已很温柔并关心的语气问候对方为何没有约他和其他同事吃饭，然后也以很温柔的语气和对方说迟些往商谈。

我就是觉得很奇怪，因为他不曾那么的温柔和他的同事说电话。我懂，或许我想得太多。可是我很想知道那位同事到底是谁。为何他会那么的关心他？我懂，我想得太多了。可是，我真的很害怕他会离开我。我并不是不相信他，而是我对类似情况有恐惧感。

~*Independence*~

Had been busy lately because:

1. My friend visited me on last last weekend. Tired and tired..
2. Just got my car and had been driving to work. Tired and tired..
3. Went back hometown. I'm driving back.. So again.. Tired and tired..
4. Yesterday woke up early to settle my passport. Then dinner at night and back home around 10.30. Tired and tired..

Had been thinking lately that I'm like doing everything all by myself. Yes, this is independent.

Sometimes, when come to think about it, is it really good to be independent? I knew everyone would say "YES". But for me, I don't think being independent is really good. I think in my previous blog, I did mention that being independent will make people think that we are strong and capable to handle everything on my our own.

I used to be independent. Real independent that I do not need people help me to do anything including handling the household problem. This save a lot of trouble but I don't like it. I don't like the way people think that I'm independent, so they don't need to help me or care bout me.

In fact, I'm a girl. I love to be pampered and being treated like a girl. After I got my car, I felt like old times that doing everything on my own. There is this feeling that make me feel sad and unhappy. I not sure why and I doesn't know what to do to make myself happy again.

~*Moodless*~

Sad..

When I need opinion, there is none.