It's a bad thing!

I knew it's bad when I start blogging.

I used to blog cause no one to talk to.
I used to blog cause no one to share my sadness.
I used to blog to spare my time.
I used to blog to tell my voices from the heart.

I'm sad. I'm real sad.
Though I'm promoted to a higher level in my job, but I still feel sad.
I like my job? I'm doubt of it.
I like my promotion? I don't feel happy bout it.

All I felt was guilty and sadness.
I paid attention to my job, I seems to be avoidance to my love one.
I paid attention to my love one, I seems to be lay back in my job.
The biggest sadness is I can't plan on my love one birthday.
I don't have the time to buy gift. I don't have the time to plan for his birthday.
I don't like all these happen to me.. But.. how?

I want to resign from my job, but what I will work for in future?
I want a break to get away from my job, but when I can have it?

I'm so sick of myself!