~*Merry Christmas*~

I thought I won't be going out with friends during Christmas eve. I'm so surprise that my friend didn't go home for Dhristmas eve celebration. This year, I had my first Christmas eve celebration with friends. It is my first time celebrate Christmas with friends in Malacca and I think it will be the last time to do so.

Chirstmas eve, we went to Portuguese Square by two cars and park the cars at a friend house which is nearby Portuguese Village. we took around 20-30 minutes to reach Portuguese Square. On the way to the Portuguses Village, we could see traffic jam.

In the Portuguese Village, the house there decorated with lights and Christmas trees. Most of the houses decoration are nice and some people stop by to take photo. When we reach Portuguese Square, near the stage there were crowded with people. Most of them were teenagers, college students and working adults. The people there dress up nicely especially girls. Most of the girls wore mini skirts and some of them were very sexy.

At 12am, there were some fireworks. The fireworks were short but it was quite nice. This is my first time to view fireworks so close to me. After that, we suggested to leave and went for supper. As we expected, the road was block by people as well as cars. We walked until a meeting point to meet the friends. As the traffic at the main road was jam, four of my friends went to get car while the rest of us walked to a place which id out of traffic jam to wait for them.

After 20-30 minutes, they came to fetch us and we headed to Kota Laksamana to eat "dim sam". On the way to go there, my friend went to the wrong lane and we caught at the traffic jam at Melaka Raya. Then, we pass by Pure Bar to get out from Melaka Raya. Pure Bar was crowded with people. I wonder how the people inside dance and breathe.

When we reach the "dim sam" shop, most of my friends were tired. We ate some "dim sam", chat for a while and we were ask to leave because the shop wanted to close. After that, we back to Bukit Beruang around 2am.

I felt that the moment doing nothing at the Portuguese Square were boring and meaningless. We just wait for nothing and see nothing. Besides, there is a little unexpected thing happen which make me felt even worst. I couldn't show my unhappiness in front of my friends. The most I can do was keep quiet and pretend to smile. This Christmas celebrationn is not cheering enough and I'm not really enjoy it. If I got chance to choose, I will choose to stay at home and watch movie.

Merry Christmas!!

~*A Moody Morning*~

This morning I woke up late. When I was going to enter into campus, then only I realize that I didn't bring my student ID. Damn.. Got to back to my room to get it. Thus, I was late to the class.

In the class, nothing much happen. It was boring and boring and boring.. Even I had try my best to pay attention but seems like nothing could go into my mind. Maybe I'm still in holidays mood.

Actually, I'm quite unhappy. I don't know why. Maybe there is something unexpected happen. Argh.. I hate that. Besides, I was being left alone again. Yeah, it is my fault for being moody. That's why people left me alone and not to disturb me to avoid trouble. I understand this theory and I accepted it.

Not to forget to mention, I hate to walk with a group of three. There will be one always in the front or at the back and I'm always the one.

~*Back to Campus*~

Yeah, school reopen already and I'm so proud that I had skipped my first lecture this trimester on Monday 8am. Humph, this first week doesn't have much class and most of the class had been cancelled.

Well, during the holidays, I didn't go anywhere. For the first week of holidays, I spent my time at Malacca, Batu Pahat and Tampin. My uncle from Batu Pahat move to his new house. Thus, my family and relatives had dinner at his house and go round the town to enjoy the scenery. Humph.. Seems like Batu Pahat is a quite develope town which full with shopping centre and hawker stalls.

After spending a night at my uncle house, we headed back to Malacca and the next day my family went down to Tampin while I stay at Emerald Park for few days. On thursday, 2nd December, I went down to Tampin to help my brother move house. He was force to move out cause the landlord want to renovate the house and stay there. On Sunday morning, My parents and I went back to Teluk Intan by bus. During the journey back to hometown, I got the terrible experience in the bus.

I spent 12 days at Teluk Intan by doing nothing. What I did was eat, watch tv progamme and sleep. On 17 December, I back to Malacca with my mom, aunty and cousin. I stay at my aunty house for 3 days and back to Emerald Park on Monday morning. That's why I skipped my first lecture class on this trimester.

After school reopen, I seems like still enjoying my holidays. Monday, I loiter at Jaya Jusco. Tuesday, Vince, Zhong Hui, Win Nee and I went to Mahkota Parade for a movie - The Phantom of The Opera. The show was like Mouline Rouge or The Sound of Music. It is quite nice and I enjoy the show very much. Then, on Wednesday, we again went to Mahkota Parade for the midnight show - Kung Fu Hustle. The show was quite fake as usual like Stephen Chow style.

Yesterday, I attended my first lecture of this trimester but I had skipped 1 hour of the class. The is because I was called for meeting regards the offering of Taxation 2. Actually, I'm already fed up with the appeal and accepted the fate of postpone my graduation. Haih, forget bout it le.. I don't think the last try on appeal to President directly will be approved.

Erm.. quite happy yesterday. I went for a friend birthday party. It was a BBQ night but I never got the chance to grill, instead I enjoy the chicken wings, sausages, corn, potato and lots more. The food were nice and I like it. Humph, ate too much already. I think I need to diet else I will gain weight.

~*HaPpY HoLiDaYs*~

Yahoo~ Finally, our final exam had finished. For this trimester, I knew I didn't did well but I think I will do better for the coming trimester. But I still feel that I had wasted this golden oportunity to be awarded 'Dean List'. Anyhow, I will always remind myself to study and work hard, not just to get awarded but also to get above my current CGPA. ~Gambatte!~

The starting of the holidays doesn't seem interesting to me. The most precious moment was the Saturday night which three of us, Zhong Hui, Vince and me went to Mahkota Parade for a three hours show - Alexander. We got soome hard time during the show cause our seats were the first 2nd row from the screen. After the show, we went to Jonker Street to eat Cendol. Then, we had some beers at Geographer Cafe. Even it is not any special date, but I enjoyed it very much especially I'm out of stress.

The next day, Sunday, I got up early and had 'Dim Sum' with Vince at a nearby shop in Bukit Beruang. After that, I was called to go to my uncle house at Batu Pahat. Well, it was a tired journey as I don't have enough sleep the night before. When I reached my uncle house, my first impression was "wow!" Even my uncle house is not big, but it's new and nice. I found myself comfortable in the house and I enjoyed the night view when we went for supper. Batu Pahat is a small town but it seems more interesting than my hometown - Teluk Intan.

After spending a night at my uncle house, we pay a visit to some temple there. Before we set off, we went to a fish shop. The shop name Xian Leng which was awarded as the top 50 best company in medium and small company industry. Couldn't deny that the shop is big, but the fishes inside are variety and interesting. Well, after lunch, we started our journey back to Malacca and I was being settle down in my apartment.

Tomorrow I will be going to Tampin and look for houses for my brother. He was being ask to move out. It's not my brother fault anyway, the owner want to move in that house. Ish, what a trouble created by the owner.

Actually, I got a shocked during my days with my family and relatives. I was told that my parent want to move to Malacca. Malacca?? Am I gonna be Malaccan?? Well, I don't know and I don't dare to imagine it.

LAst but not least, happy holidays to everyone! Enjoy yourself and bon voyage!

~*The Study Group*~

Today, I got myself up early. I managed to reach SEC before 10am. I'm very proud of myself as I'm the first among my study group member to reach there. Maybe this is the first time I went there earlier than them for this trimester group study.

Actually, I quite happy to study with them. Now, seems like things had changed. I don't feel much pleasure to be there. I felt that I will be more suffer the longer I stay. The study group had changed. The people involve also getting to be more advanced and more knowledgable. They seems like getting closer and closer. While I'm still left behind them. They went to see lecturer, I'll be the one who stay. When they came back, they were happily discussing something which I don't know the head and tail.

I'm so disappointed today. I thought they could help me in my study as they already took the subject - Corporate Accounting I. During my revision, I had some question in the problem. Then I asked him about it. Even he had tried his best to help me, but he couldn't solve my question. I'm really very disappointed with it. They had just took the subject last trimester and within 4 months, they could gave them back to the lecturer. I was wondering, is he already try his best to help me or maybe he is not interested in helping me?

I'm not making fuss out of nowhere. But I really feel uncomfortable with the existence of laptop during our study session. But there are people just want to use it to read notes and at the same time to have some fun chatting with friends to release stress. Even though, I still couldn't accept it.

I have such a feeling that I'll be having more difficulties and problems to be with them in future. I knew our distance getting further even I'm trying to catch up with them. I'm really tired and hopeless. I could sense that my path to depression is getting closer and closer.

Well, I should get myself clean now. Anyhow, I just wish that I could out of blue for all the time. Please cheerish me!

~*Finally, I Cry*~

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just too sad to do anything. I'm not tired. But, I just can't concentrate in my study.

Today, I'm fine all the while until after I back to campus at night. Everything seems like not in my way. My MP3 got problem because I format it another way which I shouldn't. Besides, I have no idea on what will be in the CSP final paper. I just feel that I can't fit into everyone and I can't fit into myself as well.

Finally, my depression come again. I hate it. I hate it comes at the wrong period. Around 9pm, I had no idea where I could go. I went out of the room with my book and note, walking no where. I would like to cry at anytime, anyplace. But I knew it's not proper to do so. I got myself calm until I reach FIST toilet. It's the first time I cry inside the toilet. At that time, I would like to hurt myself like what I had did before. But I had promised not to do so, else everyone will be leaving me. Even I didn't hurt myself anymore, but I don't seem to have much friends.

I don't know what I could do to get more attention and more friends. I had try my best to be more friendly, more talkative and more initiative to talk to people. But I'm still not welcome by people.

There is too much of my voice to be heard. I wish there is people who willing to lend their ears and time for me.

~*SaD*~

I'm too sad to start to write. I don't know why these two days I'm just so uncomfortable with myself. Seems like everything I do is not under my wish. Maybe I'm just too stress and couldn't focus on my study.

Yesterday, I found an idiot game. I know it's idiot but I still get myself into the game and in the end, I slept at 4am. That's why I was late to study in campus.

I was wondering whether PMS really couuld make girls moody. As I woke up, I'm in average mood. After lunch, I was being fooled and teased. People making fool on me. I knew I shouldn't angry or unhappy on it. But I just couldn't help myself from making myself angry. After a while, I'm back to normal.

Then, at the evening, I think I should go home to bath and have a short break. Yeah, my mood really went up and got a little cheer. But it was not too long cause when the time I came home from study, I had been invisible along the journey.

Afterall, I'm just couldn't help myself to cheer up. I'm tired and got a little pain on my stomach. I knew no one like it, including myself. I hate myself most when I'm so down and didn't smile. Anyway, I hope that the next morning when I wake up will be a bright day!

~*My Sushi Day*~

Yeay! I can't fought with my desire to eat sushi. Today, I went Jaya Jusco to buy correction pens, rubber, memo pad and my favourite chocolate - Ferrero Rocher.Before I came back to Emerald Park, I had my lunch and dinner (too early for dinner maybe)at Sushi King. I ate 3 plates of sushi, Soft Shell Crab Temaki and Nebetaki Udon with green tea. Wow, It's very filling and I'm very full now. Haha.. Then I apply for their Privilege Card for RM15 which I can enjoy 10% discount including today meal. Humph.. after the meal, I feel sleepy cause not emough sleep. But I still have to keep myself awake to study. Gambate!!

~My favourite chocolate - Ferrero Rocher~


~The food that I enjoy and my free gift~

Chuka Chinmi and Chuka Kurage


Ebikko


Soft Shell Crab Temaki ~ I like this most cause it is so delicious!!


Nebiyaki Udon


b: Calender
c: Teapot Set

~*Woke up @ 3.37am??*~

3.37am, I should be sleeping actually. I was awaken by Vincent at 2am and had been lying on the bed for awhile. So, I finally get up and online.

I'm a little worried as I haven't start my revision for next week final exam. I'm too lazy to open the books. Why am I so lazy?? I wonder...

I think I should have start reading now else I'll be sitting supplementary paper (touch wood). Anyway, gambate everyone!!

p/s* I might not be blogging for some times unless I have something want to say. Take care and good luck!

~*BAcc 2004 Class Photo*~

Standing from left ~Yuan Ping, Seow Ching, Jenny, Yun Ling, Vincent and Zhong Hui~
Squatting from left ~Bei Shan, Li Chuan and Pei Do~


BAcc Class photo with Law lecturer ~Mdm Flora~


Top from left ~Azmi, Mdm Flora, Vincent and Kok Ee~
Bottom from left ~Eileen, Zhong Hui and Me~

~*A Day to Remember*~

Today, 11 October 2004, is a memorable day for me. I think it would apply to Vincent, Zhong Hui and Win Nee as well.

Sharp at 7.10pm, Vincent waited Zhong Hui and I in front of the guard house of Emerald Park. I wore a mini skirt with a pink blouse together and a pair of sport shoe. Well, I got into Vincent car and waited for Zhong Hui. Around 5 minutes later, Zhong Hui came down. She wore a red shirt with white stripe on the shoulder and a pair of jean as she usually wear. When she got into car, we headed to Vincent house to take the ice wine. The ice wine is not expensive. Around RM60 to RM80. After a short while, we went to Win Nee house to pick her up.

When we reached Win Nee house, she was waiting us with Samuel in front of her house. Win Nee wore a spagetti stripe cover with a cardigan which is in blue and white colour. She wore jeans and a pair of sandal. After she came into the car, we waved to Samuel and headed to our destination - Bei Zhan restaurant. On the way to the Bei Zhan restaurant, we were discussing where to have our dinner if the restaurant didn't open.

Around 8pm, we reached at Bei Zhan restaurant. Zhong Hui, Win Nee and I went down from the car while Vincent drove to park his car. We walked into the restaurant and sat on a round table which can fit 6 people. While looking at the menu, Zhong Hui suggested to eat fish, prawn, vegetable and chicken. So, we ordered Thai Style Asam Steam Fish. The fish we ordered is "Snow Fish". Vincent Said that the fish is quite expensive. As for the prawn, we ordered Butter Prawn. I can't really remember the title for the dish, but it is something like that. The vegetable we ordered is Kang Kong and the chicken was cooked with honey.

While waiting for the food, we took photo with the wine we brought there. Soon, the dishes were ready and we started to taste it. The fish was very nice and tasty. The chicken and prawn were delicious too. After we finished all the dishes, we tasted the wine and we took pictures too. Seems like we never took pictures before and people around also looked at us one kind.

After we settled the bill, Win Nee suggested we went for photo session. But, we had no idea on where to take photo. On the way to get out from Melaka Raya, we passed by Harbour Club and we agreed to take photo there. We are crazy enough to take photo in the middle of the road. Actually Vincent would like to lie down on the road but he was not dare enough to do so. Moreover, it's quite dangerous to do so. When we satisfied with our craziness, we leaved Melaka Raya and headed to the Sthydust (not sure how to spell).

We parked the car somewhere near Mahkota Parade and we walked into the historical area. We passed by the display plane and train and there is a playground. So, we decided to take photo at the playground. I regretted to wear miniskirt there cause I can't really have fun there. Soon after that, we walked along the old buildings and reached at the junction in front of the Sthydust. There, we took photo at the junction, the windmill and the bridge.

After all the excitement and the camera out of battery, we suggested to go back. When we reached the junction where one way is headed to Mahkota Parade while the other way is headed to those old buildings. Then, I said that the way to go Mahkota Parade would be nearer and suggested to go through that way. But Vincent kept argued with me saying that the other way will be nearer. So, we seperated into two groups which Zhong Hui and Win Nee headed to the way where there are full of old buildings while Vincent and me go throught the way which headed to Mahkota Parade. Ten to fifteen minutes later, from far away, Vincent and I could see Zhong Hui and Win Nee waiting at the car. When Vincent and I reached there, Zhong Hui said they waited for us for five minutes.

Soon we got into the car and went back to Bukit Beruang. When we reached the waterfall, we suggested to have a walk around the waterfall. Than, we parked the car. There were quite a lot Malays. Mostly are couple but there also a few group of people. There is nothing much about the waterfall as we can't take photo there cause the camera out of battery. So, when we finish walked around the waterfall, we went back to Bukit Beruang.

Well, I enjoyed every moment of today. It is fun and it might be the last outing for me with them.


Before the dinner ~Vincent, Me, Zhong Hui and Win Nee~


A picture of memory before we leave


We are too crazy to take photo on the middle of the road


The little train at the playground


The pretties and the hansome


At one of the historical building


At the junction with signboards


The clock tower of Malacca


Nice view

~*A Sad Day*~

I don't know what I had did wrongly. I don't know why people will treat me as a freak. I'm quiet doesn't mean that I'm unfriendly.

I'm tired being myself. Is it my fault for being too myself? Or is it I should be fake around and lost my identity? I really don't know what should I do. Seems like whatever I did, it was my fault. For every single words I spoke, it seems to be my fault as well. I rather be quiet and keep everyhting to myself.

I fought hard to save myself from others. I'm really tired fighting around when I was told that I'm fighting with myself.

Sometimes I cry. I cry for no reason. I cry just to release my stress. But for most, I cry because I hurt. How deep my heart had been broken? My heart broken from pieces to pieces. I wonder, is there any way to reassemble it?

~*I Wish...*~

When I decided to take four subjects this trimester, I expected that I will have not much time for my games and forums. I rather let go the entertainment I had and concentrate on my education. This is because I want to graduate on time.

I believe that I can handle the four subjects that I took which are quite heavy for everyone in the short trimester. Even though, I never complain about it to anyone. I just wish that I could have more than 24 hours per day.

~*A Moody Day*~

I woke up early today. Don't know why. Maybe someone woke me up?? Haha..

I don't know what's wrong with my connection. I can't go online. I'm suffering the minute without internet. Argh... Even though, I still have to go class instead of wondering what's wrong. Before I went to 10am class, I bought a chicken porridge and had it with my unfinish series movie. While enjoying the show, I realised that it's time to go for my classes. Without bothering bout the internet connection, I left my room and attended class.

Wow, what a tired day to have. My classes are continuosly for six hours!! I thought that I won't be hungry during my Corporate Accounting class, but I can listen to my stomach playing drums. But still, I have to finish my class until 4pm.

Don't know what's wrong with me in a sudden. I just like got mad with myself and throw anger to people. Humph.. Maybe I'm just too tired.

Anyhow, the day still bright, and wish that I could have a better moment for today. Cheers!

~*A LaZy DaY*~

What I had been doing today? Guess I did nothing other than onlining, chatting, foruming and net surfing. Maybe today is just a boring day!!

Well well, I can't be stay the same like this forever. I must do something to motivate myself to study. But again, study seems boring to me. It is a life long learning process which will never end. But still, I have to do it.. for my own benefit.. Hai~~

Here I come ~*My first post*~

Humph.. Why I blog?? I wonder as well..

Nothing much to talk here.. Just a simple hello to everyone who visit my blog..