~*HaPpY HoLiDaYs*~

Yahoo~ Finally, our final exam had finished. For this trimester, I knew I didn't did well but I think I will do better for the coming trimester. But I still feel that I had wasted this golden oportunity to be awarded 'Dean List'. Anyhow, I will always remind myself to study and work hard, not just to get awarded but also to get above my current CGPA. ~Gambatte!~

The starting of the holidays doesn't seem interesting to me. The most precious moment was the Saturday night which three of us, Zhong Hui, Vince and me went to Mahkota Parade for a three hours show - Alexander. We got soome hard time during the show cause our seats were the first 2nd row from the screen. After the show, we went to Jonker Street to eat Cendol. Then, we had some beers at Geographer Cafe. Even it is not any special date, but I enjoyed it very much especially I'm out of stress.

The next day, Sunday, I got up early and had 'Dim Sum' with Vince at a nearby shop in Bukit Beruang. After that, I was called to go to my uncle house at Batu Pahat. Well, it was a tired journey as I don't have enough sleep the night before. When I reached my uncle house, my first impression was "wow!" Even my uncle house is not big, but it's new and nice. I found myself comfortable in the house and I enjoyed the night view when we went for supper. Batu Pahat is a small town but it seems more interesting than my hometown - Teluk Intan.

After spending a night at my uncle house, we pay a visit to some temple there. Before we set off, we went to a fish shop. The shop name Xian Leng which was awarded as the top 50 best company in medium and small company industry. Couldn't deny that the shop is big, but the fishes inside are variety and interesting. Well, after lunch, we started our journey back to Malacca and I was being settle down in my apartment.

Tomorrow I will be going to Tampin and look for houses for my brother. He was being ask to move out. It's not my brother fault anyway, the owner want to move in that house. Ish, what a trouble created by the owner.

Actually, I got a shocked during my days with my family and relatives. I was told that my parent want to move to Malacca. Malacca?? Am I gonna be Malaccan?? Well, I don't know and I don't dare to imagine it.

LAst but not least, happy holidays to everyone! Enjoy yourself and bon voyage!

~*The Study Group*~

Today, I got myself up early. I managed to reach SEC before 10am. I'm very proud of myself as I'm the first among my study group member to reach there. Maybe this is the first time I went there earlier than them for this trimester group study.

Actually, I quite happy to study with them. Now, seems like things had changed. I don't feel much pleasure to be there. I felt that I will be more suffer the longer I stay. The study group had changed. The people involve also getting to be more advanced and more knowledgable. They seems like getting closer and closer. While I'm still left behind them. They went to see lecturer, I'll be the one who stay. When they came back, they were happily discussing something which I don't know the head and tail.

I'm so disappointed today. I thought they could help me in my study as they already took the subject - Corporate Accounting I. During my revision, I had some question in the problem. Then I asked him about it. Even he had tried his best to help me, but he couldn't solve my question. I'm really very disappointed with it. They had just took the subject last trimester and within 4 months, they could gave them back to the lecturer. I was wondering, is he already try his best to help me or maybe he is not interested in helping me?

I'm not making fuss out of nowhere. But I really feel uncomfortable with the existence of laptop during our study session. But there are people just want to use it to read notes and at the same time to have some fun chatting with friends to release stress. Even though, I still couldn't accept it.

I have such a feeling that I'll be having more difficulties and problems to be with them in future. I knew our distance getting further even I'm trying to catch up with them. I'm really tired and hopeless. I could sense that my path to depression is getting closer and closer.

Well, I should get myself clean now. Anyhow, I just wish that I could out of blue for all the time. Please cheerish me!

~*Finally, I Cry*~

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just too sad to do anything. I'm not tired. But, I just can't concentrate in my study.

Today, I'm fine all the while until after I back to campus at night. Everything seems like not in my way. My MP3 got problem because I format it another way which I shouldn't. Besides, I have no idea on what will be in the CSP final paper. I just feel that I can't fit into everyone and I can't fit into myself as well.

Finally, my depression come again. I hate it. I hate it comes at the wrong period. Around 9pm, I had no idea where I could go. I went out of the room with my book and note, walking no where. I would like to cry at anytime, anyplace. But I knew it's not proper to do so. I got myself calm until I reach FIST toilet. It's the first time I cry inside the toilet. At that time, I would like to hurt myself like what I had did before. But I had promised not to do so, else everyone will be leaving me. Even I didn't hurt myself anymore, but I don't seem to have much friends.

I don't know what I could do to get more attention and more friends. I had try my best to be more friendly, more talkative and more initiative to talk to people. But I'm still not welcome by people.

There is too much of my voice to be heard. I wish there is people who willing to lend their ears and time for me.

~*SaD*~

I'm too sad to start to write. I don't know why these two days I'm just so uncomfortable with myself. Seems like everything I do is not under my wish. Maybe I'm just too stress and couldn't focus on my study.

Yesterday, I found an idiot game. I know it's idiot but I still get myself into the game and in the end, I slept at 4am. That's why I was late to study in campus.

I was wondering whether PMS really couuld make girls moody. As I woke up, I'm in average mood. After lunch, I was being fooled and teased. People making fool on me. I knew I shouldn't angry or unhappy on it. But I just couldn't help myself from making myself angry. After a while, I'm back to normal.

Then, at the evening, I think I should go home to bath and have a short break. Yeah, my mood really went up and got a little cheer. But it was not too long cause when the time I came home from study, I had been invisible along the journey.

Afterall, I'm just couldn't help myself to cheer up. I'm tired and got a little pain on my stomach. I knew no one like it, including myself. I hate myself most when I'm so down and didn't smile. Anyway, I hope that the next morning when I wake up will be a bright day!

~*My Sushi Day*~

Yeay! I can't fought with my desire to eat sushi. Today, I went Jaya Jusco to buy correction pens, rubber, memo pad and my favourite chocolate - Ferrero Rocher.Before I came back to Emerald Park, I had my lunch and dinner (too early for dinner maybe)at Sushi King. I ate 3 plates of sushi, Soft Shell Crab Temaki and Nebetaki Udon with green tea. Wow, It's very filling and I'm very full now. Haha.. Then I apply for their Privilege Card for RM15 which I can enjoy 10% discount including today meal. Humph.. after the meal, I feel sleepy cause not emough sleep. But I still have to keep myself awake to study. Gambate!!

~My favourite chocolate - Ferrero Rocher~


~The food that I enjoy and my free gift~

Chuka Chinmi and Chuka Kurage


Ebikko


Soft Shell Crab Temaki ~ I like this most cause it is so delicious!!


Nebiyaki Udon


b: Calender
c: Teapot Set

~*Woke up @ 3.37am??*~

3.37am, I should be sleeping actually. I was awaken by Vincent at 2am and had been lying on the bed for awhile. So, I finally get up and online.

I'm a little worried as I haven't start my revision for next week final exam. I'm too lazy to open the books. Why am I so lazy?? I wonder...

I think I should have start reading now else I'll be sitting supplementary paper (touch wood). Anyway, gambate everyone!!

p/s* I might not be blogging for some times unless I have something want to say. Take care and good luck!

~*BAcc 2004 Class Photo*~

Standing from left ~Yuan Ping, Seow Ching, Jenny, Yun Ling, Vincent and Zhong Hui~
Squatting from left ~Bei Shan, Li Chuan and Pei Do~


BAcc Class photo with Law lecturer ~Mdm Flora~


Top from left ~Azmi, Mdm Flora, Vincent and Kok Ee~
Bottom from left ~Eileen, Zhong Hui and Me~