~*My Courage*~

Yesterday was the last day for TRINiTE 2005 Roadshow. I took up my courage to participate in the event. The roadshow took me 4 hours to done my make-up, hair perming and phtograph.

Here is the picture which taken by my friend after the roadshow.

~*Japanese Culture Nite*~

This is the first time I attended Japanese Culture Nite. Actually, I got the ticket for free from my boss who is not free on that night. Humph.. I got the free ticket also is a problem cause I don't have friend to go with. But at last, I went for it.

When I reach Main Hall, MMU around 7.30pm, I saw people standing outside like waiting to go in. I was thinking,"Huh! Got ticket also need to queue?" I dislike to queue, so I went to the ATM of BCB to check my account. Then, I went back to the Main Hall and the people there was lesser. I took some pictures and went in.

Once I entered inside the Main Hall, the usherer took my ticket and tear off the top part for lucky draw. Then the other usherers gave me a Teruterubozu, a booklet of the event and a drink taste green tea. After that, I directed myself for a nice seat which I could take pictures and watch the performance without blockage.

After the arrival of VIP, the directors of the event and the president of JLS gave their speech. Then, the event follow by the opening ceremony which there was a student holding a Samurai and gave it to the VIP to put it in front of the stage. After that, the performances were started by a Japanese traditional dance, follow by a Japanese drum performance, and some other Japanese dance. There are also local performances which were Para Para Paradise, musical performance and modern dances.

Around 10.45pm, the event was ended and I left the Main Hall and went home.

My review for this event is, the Japanese performances was great and good. Even though, I'm still not satisfied with this event because it does not fit with its title - Japanese Culture Nite. The dances performed by the local students were hot and modern and they are not fit into the title. I not sure about what other people expect from this event, but I'm sure this event disspointed me. I was expecting to see the performance with Japanese umbrella, hand fan and dress in Kimono.

~The Japanese Culture Nite Ticket~


~The Lobby of Main Hall, MMU (The guy thought I took his picture, but in fact, I just want to take the scenary. He spoiled my view!!)~


~The Entrance~


~The Stage~


~The MC (Got another 2 that I didn't took their photo)~


~The Opening Ceremony~


~The First Japanese Traditional Dance~


~The Drum Performance~


~Japanese Dance~


~Musical Instrument Performance by MMU student (First Love and Eyes On Me)~


~Little Japanese girl in Kimono~


~Another Japanese Dance~


~Para Para Paradise (Too little people dancing, more should be nicer!)~


~The Hair Styling Show by Creative Look Hair Studio & Academy~


~Local Performance - even dress in Kimono but performing modern dance~

~*New Year, New Wish, New ME?*~

I wonder, why am I getting terrible day by day. Even my parents and family didn't give me any pressure, but I do receive from outsiders. I has such a feeling that my classmates view me as an alien. Besides, I also felt that they looking down on me.

I admitted that I'm quite shy in front of people and will be additionally quiet with those I'm not so close with. Refresh back for the past few days I working for airbrush, I knew this girl from Beta Human Resource, but I had no barrier talking to her. Maybe, I'm too pressure being in the class. I felt like I'm being avoided and also being left alone.

Now, I always go class alone, sit alone and talk to myself. Are those normal? Yeah, maybe. It's normal for an extended student who are not so familiar in the class.

I lost my confidence since Beta year. I lost everything include friendship, love and education. I lost my soul as well. Everyday walking around campus, I just like looking for something and thinking something else. Each time my friend saw me also will ask me, "hey, you didn't see me ak?" In fact, I really didn't see her. Even I'm looking at the front, but I don't know where is my sight focus on.

I feel sick, mentally sick. I need a break to go far away from this sophiscated place.